Wednesday, February 25, 2004
rOute T: eXplained
"juz finish the green tape n red tape route
now for the rOute T..
i see the route, i observed the route
i visualize the route... chalked my fingers
n boulder.. 1st attempt: fell 2nd attempt: fell
3rd attempt: fell 4th attempt: fell..
arghh.. juz feel like giving up.. but NO..
i wanna complete this route..
i gathered my power again n go again..
yarghhh.. managed to reach the 2nd last tile
my next move will be a dyno (dynamic move)
its a 50-50 chance.. either i reach or i fall..
1..2..3.. *jump..
got hold of the tile but my low body was
way way barndoor.. my right shoulder cracked..
i fell.. *argghhhhh.. my shoulder..
the rockgym suddenly turned silence
all can see that there was bump on the
shoulder n dats the joint.. quite freaky actually
thats how i dislocate my right shoulder..
norman n yan came.. demobilised.
i bite dzul shirt thinkin they will relocate my
shoulder.. but i was really in deep pain.. *ouchh
so they decided not to..
woanni n norman took off my shoe..
yan made me sit.. sit against yan knee..
dzul called the ambulance.. *995
then yan n norman carry me outside the gym
to wait for the ambulance.. 5 mins later
i was in the van.. n at this time.. i fear the
worst.. i afraid i cant take the pain anymore..
feel like giving up.. n it sux..
(come on fie, don give up)
but the pain juz unbearable..
the door opened.. i was at CGH A n E dept..
was transfered to another bed..
"eh, how u fall ah?" "eh how u fall ah?"
i had to ans this qn for bout 5 times..
the doc told me to sit n hug my knees..
then slowly lay back..
*kleteek.. *kleteek..
the bone was in its normal position..
problem solved.. no japs, no nothing..
the doc said i was lucky as the time
i dislocated my shoulder was not that long..
if more than 1hr already than they have
to put me to sleep n they did the rest..
then proceed for an x-ray..
to check whether the bones had been
properly in.. n it was..
gave me a document to collect my painkillers
n off i go home wif my parents.."
wad an incident.. 23 Feb, shall b remembered
as the day i dislocated my right shoulder..
would like to thanks the climbers n coaches
for helpin me out when im in pain..
also to those who wish me a speedy recovery..
i really appreciate ur concerns..
will not be joinin boulderactive nor tp relay..
n now, i got to rest for bout a month or two
before i can make my ferst climb again..
but when to think bout it, there was fear..
fear of climbing again.. the incident juz
playing back to back in my mind..
IM NOT GOIN TO QUIT!.. CLIMB ON!!
btw, juz reformated my comp..
most of the documents gone..
wth... *aiys.. forget it..
Sunday, February 22, 2004
rEpLiEs**
to:
all those who tagged:
thanks a lot guys..
luv u all..
miss u all..
joop:
like i said, i ve been thru worst..
but when i fell, u ppl were ard to help me up
dun let failure hold u back..
dun let failure be a dissapointment
instead take it as a feedback..
pick up the pieces where u left behind..
seek help if u need too..
we humans need each other as support..
nemind, we go out again, then i bring u
to places where u cant resist buying..
ahahah.. retail therapy!!..
to whoeva whu climbed:
i not mad.. juz..
a bit dissapointed..
to put my trust on u all is a very big
responsibility.. anything happened,
its me dat will kena fuck-up..
anyway, u ppl shud be concentrating
on ur studies...
any anyway, its the term break now
so i expect to see yall
@ the pump room soon.. !!
sleepin soon.. long day 2mr..
start werk @ 8am then go training..
slEEp! slEEp! slEEp!
Saturday, February 21, 2004
SoRRoW + WoRRy + AngEr = bAd bAd wEEk!!
ard 630am this morning, i woke up to have
my wudhu' (ablution) for my morning prayers
as i walkin back to my rOOm, the phone rang
usuaLLy i would juz go back to my rOOm but
at that time i stOOd infront of my mum's room
my guts told me that sumthing was not right
THEN.. my told me my nyai sedare (grand aunt)
had juz passed away.. y is my guts so right..
it really gives me the crEEp..
Nyai Minah telah kembali ke Rahmatullah..
my mum quickly get change to go to the hse
while me cont wif my prayers n went back
to slp..me n my bruders went to visit ard 10+
by that time, there were already alot of ppl..
this is the part where i can get quite emo..
i really go weak when death was ard me..
i was all fine, till the body was to be brought
to the mosque to have prayers b4 goin to
the cemetery.. i went to help to carry down
the body to void deck.. while at the void deck,
one of the ppl was giving some last prayers..
usually, at this period where he was giving
the prayers, shivers run down my spine..
not to forget tears..
ALWAYS.. every death, this kind of feelin
will always happen to me.. then we went
to Masjid Ghufran.. had normal prayers
followed by Sholat Jenazah.. at this time also,
tears again.. DEATH juz made me go WEAK,
but not to the extend of fallin down.. u juz
cant hold back ur tears.. i told my bruder that
i'll not be goin to the cemetery coz i got driving
n werk later.. so as i walked out the mosque,
meet aim n fauzee, told them the bus full of
ppl were my relatives, i told them i felt very
bad not to go to the cemetery due to the stuff
i had.. then they said, the ppl will understand
one..by then, the bus had already went off..
afta much thinkin, i called my bruder again n
told him, i wan to follow.. luckily my uncle
havent go..b4 that i called my instructor to
cancel my practical n called my werk place
to tell them i mite be late fer werk..
@ Pusara Aman, there were already some
relatives.. when the bus arrived, i helped
again to carry the coffin to the bury area..
when it was already buried, again there
were some prayers goin on.. again that
feelin came again.. the shivers n the tears..
then went its all over, tried to find
my fren's grave who passed away last mon
wanted to sedekahkan fatihah but couldnt
find the grave, so i juz niat n recite in my
heart then went back home to get change n
went to werk..
this week has certainly been a bad one..
ppl may have bad day, but i had bad week..
to start off my week, my friend died of
accident, then came the climbing issue..
then to end, another death.. sat n sun still
there, hope its gonna be fine.. goin to the
mosque later in the evenin to celebrate
Muharram.. the new yr in the islamic calendar
may GOD bless your kind souls n
may ur souls rest in peace:
Tarmizi [1983-2004]
Nyai Minah [1921-2004]
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
finally had my last paper juz now..
tink i will juz pass coz most of the tips given
nebe come out.. ape seh??.. study wrong
thing.. but nebe mind ah, at least the
calculation can be done..
then had grp discussion regarding our
business plan.. later head to banquet
eastpoint.. i had this mee ramen..
ahaha.. baru je semalam makan this mee..
not bad ah the mee, sweet n spicy..
also had ice kacang for dessert..
mann.. i juz cant control my temptations
on food.. kate je nak save, tapi belanje..
but on food, k tak pasal.. whahahhaa..
then in the evening, had my driving pratical..
learnt how to do parallel parking.. kuakuakua
lucky was able to pick it up fast.. also 1st time
driving at nite.. but today, cant concentrate
much.. maybe becoz im thinkin bout other stuff..
wad other stuff?.. bgr?.. ahahah hell no..
nothing else but my climbing..
my SDO called me n nagged bout this
equipment quatation thingy.. was like
shouting to my ear, then like everything he
said is right, wad to do, jus tahan like i
always do* sighz.. being on top is not easy..
then to add on to my worries, got to know
some of the climbers went to the rockgym..
still haven noe why they went..
(someone x-plain to me???!!)
its already stated that no climbing till
term break.. cant follow simple instructions?..
treat u all like adults, this is wad i get?..
i noe u all can resist the temptations to climb
BUT, there is the line where u shud noe when
to stop or went to continue..
u wan be a good/better climber, then u must
have disipline.. how are u goin to be gd, if u
cant even control ur life.. put ur priorities
straight ferst.. studies then climbing..
gosshhz.. its been a long time i write bout this..
but juz need to let it out once again..
u werk hard now, u can enjoy ur time later..
imagine, failling n got to go for extra classes
n all those shits?.. whu would wan to go?..
think, would say this again to the climbers
when training resumes.. til then, need to do
my competition report n other stuff..
last werds: think b4 u act..
wat u do will affect others
(remember dat!)
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
spent my day @ the library..
studying for my last paper.. aim was there
to teach me last min stuff.. hehe.. luckily
can pick up fast.. then he had to go for work
thanks bud, ur the best mate!.. then later
went lunch wif my best fwen.. rabak..
bawa bekal sendiri aje.. :Þ
best fwens wif benefits *hint hint.. ahahhaha
had beef murtabak n egg prata, actually
wanted to buy chicken prata but... *hmmm..
then cont studying.. as always do peer
teaching, wad aim taught me, i taught ain
then ain taught afiz.. cool huh..
then we do revision till 6+..
while @ the library saw this cute gerl again..
hehe.. been seein her since yr 1..
wander she got noticed..ceh.. blah la mat!..
ahahhaa.. juz admiring her beauty..
or shud i say cute.. salah ke?.. takkk kann..
anyways, she is already attached..
*blueekk.. not in the mood to be lovey dovey..
ishish..
now gonna do sum memorising or shud i say
masmerising?.. wad cock siah??!..
2mr i'll b free afta 10am.. come! date me!..
Monday, February 16, 2004
im sooo gonna get u.. sOOn..
oNe dowN, oNe 2 gO
had my NETWORK MANAGEMENT N SECURITY
test paper today.. was ok ah, study last min..
then on wed got last paper.. going study later..
wad else ah.. ohhz..
yesterday we got speed comp @ yishun..
the response was not dat great..
only got few teams that joined..
but then, everyone TP climber is a winner..
coz everybody got prize.. whahahhaha..
i got a chalk ball, liquid chalk n chalk bag..
tried to sai-ko Masrizal to xchange wif his ATC..
but failed.. arghh.. hehe.. nemind, next time
i will get one, also planning to get new shoe
(v10) n harness (petzl or metolius)..
i wan to give away the chalk-bag but so cute..
hmm.. simpan sudah eh.. the chalk ball n liquid
chalk, we all share share sua la eh..
nothin much actually to blog, been slackin afta
test juz now.. had hotcakes @ Mc's,
then 5 mins later, eat @KFC.. ahahhaa..
seems like i cant get away wif chicken..
then go do big business.. wahahhaa..
then went to fauzee hse to play game..
play awhile onlie then fall asleep.. ahahhaha..
wan to add on sumthin.. got to noe frm my
fren that one of our senior fren @ loyang
passed away last nite due to motorcycle
accident, watched the news juz now..
stated that he just passed his license n
was to go to NS next month..
Innallilahiwainnalillahirhojiun...
i think i wanna call Augustine, see if he studyin.
till then.. wont b bloggin much nowadays..
everytime infront of the comp, my mind went blank..
Saturday, February 14, 2004
crazie crazyy..
harloe again.. its close to 1 n i haven bathe..
hehe.. juz got back frm werk..
today was ok la, like normal..
my supervisor was suppose to teach me
to make the hot drinks, but never.. grrr..
i wan to learn but she was busy.. but my other
collegue(sarah) taught me how to do closing..
then got this some ppl frm spinelli frm other
outlets came down here to chill out..
manz... they juz bitching non-stop siah..
guys, gerls all the same.. me cant keep up..
juz chuckle a bit n say one or two..
then one of them say, i got sweet smile..
aiyo.. they blind ah?.. pity them seh.. hehe..
i got 2 noe this bunch of ppl.. there is this
young malay guy, age 23 wif 3 kids,
called ahmadee(it was his birthday)
then got indian guy i think, suman i think..
also got anan n su-ing..i think so ah..
this su-ing ah thot she was nice
till she tok to me.. blOOdy HeLL..
step mane Nye ManAgEr/FuLL timEr lak..
onli a part-timer n wan to diss me.. juz because
u frm VJC, u can speak well, big shot ah..
i only 2 days doin the hot drinkz,
n she tok so much.. throw the hot milk at
her runway then she noe.. *evil laugh..
then later in the nite, i had to go out n promote
our drinks.. lucky, nobody i knew,
if not, paiseh...hehe..
then i brought back some muffins..
suppose to meet up wif my kazen but she
went back ferst..then meet her up later n
we xchange food..she gave me
FaMouS Amos cookies, i gave herthe muffins..
*crunchy dope!.. ehehe
suppose to have test 2mr but was cancel..
*pheeww.. lucky coz haven study also..
now goin to take bath then pray then hope to
do some notes on my monday paper..
mum bought nasi ayam, think eat it 2mr + my muffin..
till then, happy valentines day
to those celebrating..
sowie to the singles,
cant join u guys due to werk..
*bathroom paging for fie..
Friday, February 13, 2004
boring? wateva..
by now, some of u all mite think dat my blog
is damn freakin boring..
yeah, call it boring, call it lame..
i juz put my entries of wad my doings n not
on my reflection of wad i had done..
y?.. coz i don wan to be into an emo state..
n also its not the rite time to go into dat..
anyways, juz to update this blog of wad i done today:
went to werk:
werk was ok, learn how to
make the hot drinks..
was blur at first but was ok afterwards..
can learn quite fast.. =>
2mr will be doin closing, which means
i'll be bringing back some food.. hehe..
after werk, went to sch to meet up someone:
had a long conversation with dat person..
hopefully dat person don take
it as a waste of time..den, meet up
with the joop, ilyas, lee, faram n we all
went home.. thot of meeting the rest to
play pool but all of us are dead tired..
nows its 130am, on the phone wif
someone whose mind already in dreamland
(im toking alone??).. grrr...
oh ya, went to the doc yesterday, got
a stronger prescription, hopefully can
beats off this cough of mine..
owe nisha 18 bux for the that.. thanks gerl..
n i hav not been climbing for 2 weeks!!.. arghh..
gotta get well fasssssttt...
i got a tcs presentation in bout 8 hrs time..
so shudnt i be in bed?..
chiao..
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
PeNaT SioLz
i think i will not elaborate on my RockMaster comp..
coz i dun hav the time to do so..
juz wanna update on what i been doin last week..
monday;
driving, climbing
tuesday;
sch, climbing
wednesday;
sch, farewell party
thursday;
werk, 5km jog, climbing
friday;
sch, werk
saturday;
werk, RockMaster @ Clarke Quay
sunday;
RockMaster @ Clarke Quay (whole day)
phewww.. wat a week.. n tell ya, im still feeling
lethargic.. n this week is no diff frm last week..
this is wat goin to happen for the next days..
wednesday;
sch, climbing
thursday;
werk
friday;
sch, werk
saturday;
sch(test), werk
sunday;
religious class, climbing
k.. hopefully dats all..
next week term test, hope to do well..
will find time to study..
till then, i gotta get back on my fyp shit!!!
cccyaaaaaaa..
Sunday, February 08, 2004
Shaaaggg..
m too tired n m too busy to update..
will tell more bout what i did today/yesterday
when free.. now need to study
in the mean time, check this out -->
pics found @ TP website..
Bout TP [go to Photo Gallery]
Pic One
Pic Two
Pic Three
Friday, February 06, 2004
Spin? Mix? Twist?
yaw yaw.. wahahhaha..
today i started my ferst day of werk..
how was it?.. ok la.. quiet a bit..
then summore all cina.. aiys..
nvm.. got use to it already..
basically, more or less the same like my previous
workplace; CCX @ T2 xcept for their terms..
like mix = base.. only CCX ppl understand it.. hehe
got jot down the steps in doin those stuff..
quite boring actually coz mayb i dun noe how to do it..
but i think i'll b able to learn it fast due to my xperience..
whaaaahhaha.. ceh ceh ceh..
then went for jog wif my vice-cap.. thot wanna jog
3km, in the end, jogged the whole reservoir!!..
its really mind over matter boi.. considering
then during training time.. didnt do much coz
of my injured left palm n also shagged already..
but i did set some route..
got this route, onli a few moves but i increased the grade
each time someone completed it..
neway, was happy wif those who can complete..
to those who can, the route wil be there, try them..
now gotta study.. quiz next week..
hopefully can stay awake for the next 1hr or so..
i not that gd in running n still coughin away..
later..
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Bon Voyage Ppl
instead of our usual training today,
we had a bonding-farwell party for
our coaches; garick n margaret..
they'll be leaving us for further studies
everything was well;
the games, the food, the ppl
till that man started to talk..
this la, that la,.. blah blah blah..
wahahhaha.. wad the heck..
all n all, it was a gd occasion..
kudos to the organisers..
maybe i belanja u all.. mayb..
tired now, tekak still gatal..
still coughin.. haiys..
need to drink more plain water..
will start werk 2mr..
hopefully it doesnt affect my studies..
quizzes, test coming up..
sweet dreams!..
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
pls noOoo...
i beg u as ur humble servant not to hurt my hand..
pls heal it soon as i got my comp on sunday..
i need my body in gd condition..
futhermore, next weekend i have speed competition..
so, pls do heal my hand (n the coughin i've been having lately) dear god..
*left hand in pain..
*amin..
btw, check out this news
when there is water, there is fire
had a gd day todae till i came back..
y?? coz i was damn tired n hungry frm
my training session @ ClimbAsia n all
dat i wan to eat was the brownies that me
n mum made yesterday.. guess wad?..
POOF!! all GONE!!.. i was so freaking mad siah..
not even one piece left.. was so mad that
i juz kept quiet n eat my dinner in anger..
anyways, enjoyed my time @ ClimbAsia juz now..
managed to pump up some freaking routes..
especially the last few routes that i set.. eheheh..
1st half at level 1, 2nd half at level 2..
was happy wif myself for making full use of the time spent..
hopefully i can perform well for this Sun Comp..
juz wish dat i got more dope so i can be a regular customer
there.. if only the place is nearer, don have to spent much
on transport.. goin there is like spendin 10 bux.. woahhh.
k now, time for bed (soon)..
Sunday, February 01, 2004
juz wan to add on..
apologies to those non-climbers..
yall may think im a freako or sumthin..
ahahah.. mayb im..
its beta than spending ur $$ buyin 50 bikinis..
(new paper, saturday)
to those non-climbers, welcome to my werld
and hope u understand my blog..
if not, feel free to ask me..
PEACE!
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wah wah wah..
new layout seh..
kekekekek..
k, decided to make a layout
specially for my passion..
CLIMBING!!.. yargh..
dis month blog dedicated to
CLIMBING..
got so many things happening
Comps la, new Coach la, workplan la..
blah blah blah..
gonna eat rite now.. will blog again soon..
i didnt say that i cant accept the changes..
nooo.. i didnt even say that...
it also doesnt matter how ur xanga looks like
was matter is the content..
im juz telling my opinions...
u noe we have always been
frank in our opinions..
u wont noe wad im thinking too
coz i changed n i admit that..
i changed the way i think..
deep down, i still know whu u r..
wad ur roots ah.. blah blah blah..
we have always been together..
my sincere APOLOGIES if i hurt
u deeep dowwwnn...
hope u still accept me as ur fren..
call me up aite..
