Saturday, December 24, 2005

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead.
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.


my utopian world has ended. i woke up from a beautiful 7 months dream. i wish it never end but sadly it did. i tried to forget, but i cant. i think of her even more.. how is she? have she eaten? is she ok?.. it took more a while b4 i can sleep. the feelings just sucks.

apart from the that, my week has been really horrible. i was really unmotivated. my morale was super-low. its like different shit, every day. its like everyday u being stab to the chest. isnt is better to be stab real hard one time then let u recover the rest of the week.. during this times, i just wish i didnt wake up from my sleep. sucks! sucks! sucks! will i be able to recover for the next week.. i hope so..

Friday, December 16, 2005

Irony

its ironic how the world is. there are good and bad people all around. but its the bad ones that having a good life.. listen to this sad story

i have a friend. wait, let me rephrase, i had a friend. it may just normal acquaintance but nonetheless we are still close due to group study n projects similarities. throughout the 3 years in poly, he was a very happy go lucky guy, that 'cincai' guy.. anything also can. his favourite catch phrase would be 'sad sia!'. he would not think twice in accepting his friends advise or suggestions cause' he trust his friends. you know whats the best part of him? he doesnt even drink nor smoke.

last wednesday, it was a different story. i was at his wake. and yeap, my first time attending a chinese funeral wake. apparently he had a cardiac respiratory problem. you all want to why? or should i say wonder? the nite before that everything was normal, he was joking with his mum, doing all the normal thing and then head to bed. his mum tried to wake him up the next day but to no avail. just like that he passed away.


there he is, the one im pointing at. and sadly to say, that was the last time i saw him too. last day of my poly life. i cant really recall my graduation time. perhaps he was there too. the one wearing white one of his close friend during the poly days and now an insurance agent. what i heard was that, he recently bought an insurance plan from him. and now the first death claim he had to do was his own buddy. how sad.

melvin ho kok onn
thank you for the time we have in poly
may you rest in peace
1978-2005

Sunday, December 11, 2005

somebody once asked me, "what would hurt a guy the most when he loses a girl that he really likes?".. i answered, " to see her close to you, yet so far away".. get it?

Monday, December 05, 2005

Sinus

my forehead has been feelin achy. sumtimes when i walk, i will feel dizzy out of nowhere. my either nostril will always be leaking. from day to night, night to day. if its not leaking, it will be sneezing n if not sneezing, it will be blocked. the only time this will stop is when i close my eyes. people, pls dont get near me, dont want you people get infected by my virus. i think i dying soon.. goodbye people. *closing eyes

Have you ever been down and out and nobody seems to be around for you to talk to...
THAT'S ALLAH...HE wants you to talk to HIM.

Have you ever been just sitting there and all of a sudden you feel like
doing something nice for someone you care for...
THAT'S ALLAH...HE talks to you.

Have you ever been thinking about somebody that you haven't seen in along time and
then next thing you know you see them or receive a phone call from them...
THAT'S ALLAH ...there is no such thing as "coincidence."

Have you ever received something wonderful that you didn't even ask for, like money in the mail, a debt that had mysteriously been cleared, or a coupon to the department store where you had just seen something you wanted, but couldn't afford...
THAT'S ALLAH...HE knows the desires of your heart.

Have you ever been in a situation and you had no clue how it is going to get better,
but now you look back on it...
THAT'S ALLAH ... HE passes us through tribulation to see a brighter day.

In all that we do, we should totally give ALLAH
thanks and our prayers blessings will
continue to multiply

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Kau selalu di hati
tak ku dekati
dua dunia kita berbeza
Cinta itu buta
dan juga boleh membutakan
melukakan dan sukar untuk kita lupakan
Aku cinta padamu
hanyalah ungkapan
luahan yang jarang bermakna bila diucapkan
Ini pula cerita cinta sang pujangga
bukan arjuna sita
bukan cinta dan rangga
Mungkinkah khayalan akal mainan minda
Atau lamaran puitis
dengan hasrat yang indah
Kau selalu di hati
tidak ku dekati
sentiasa ada mata jahat yang memerhati
Tapi ku tak runsing
tidak mungkin rindu
ku pusing lihat wajahmu di setiap penjuru
Senyuman di kaca
kisah mu ku baca
Perjuangan kita sama duka mu ku rasa
Aku pasrah saja pada yang Esa
Kerna ku tahu
Dua dunia kita berbeza
Suka di kala malam termimipi-mimpi
Rindu di kala siang mencari-cari
Kasih sebenar tidak bertukar
tidak sebentar
walau dipisah lautan direnangi gelora
Dan kadangkala
hanyut bagaikan buah ara
malu sering bersua tapi jarang bersuara
Kenapa bercinta
jika kesudahannya pasrah
Kerana bila dilamun indahnya tidak terkata
Tersimpan hasrat
tiada siapa yang mengerti
Harapan menggunung sampai penghujung dinanti
Dipegangkan janji
tetap ratu di hati
Dengan izin tuhan kan bersama kapan hari pasti
Sabar menanti
Kesabaran diuji
Berdoa dalam sujud sejadah ditangisi
Aku pasrah saja pada yang Esa
Kerna ku tahu
Dua dunia kita berbeza
Perjuangan seni kita tidak berpenghujung
Jangan tinggal batu bernama tak berpengunjung
Cabaran menikam
kau tidak pernah bermurung
Tetap tersenyum
walau kesedihan menyelubung
Bukan rupa paras mu yang jadi ukuran
Atau suaramu yang jadi bahan tuturan
Ku bukan mahu hubungan tapi kejujuran
Hadiah sepatah dari mu satu kesyukuran
Tapi bila bertentang mata
tidak terbentang kata
iya tapi tentang apa
Wajah mu yang cantik
Manis lagi
Senyuman sepasti mentari timur tiap pagi
Realiti sukar diatasi
Tapi kesudahan indah harus bermula dengan fantasi
Ku rasa terhoyong-hayang
Antara dua dunia
Biar khayalan ku melayang