you are your own destiny. you control your life. if your determined enough you will succeed.
someone told me, there's no point im stuck in that moment. i have to open my eyes and see the world in a different angle. there is so much to see n to feel then to think bout the past. yesterday was history. today is the present. tomorrow is the future. i have to give myself time. so the question is, how long? it all about determination.
so rite now, im gonna tell myself to really move on. seriously. but if i fall back to the past again, then dats my greatest weakness ah.. its easier said than done. nontheless im gonna try hard. i aint wanna lose anymore firE.
a series of events happened during my short weekend. it was worth every single minute..
Happy Birthday Yusri! sabo one of my commanders at the stroke of midnight on friday with shower gel, powder, colgate, kiwi and water. it was a good half n hour of sabo-ing! Climbers Outing yet another climbers outing at Sultan Cafe @ Arab st organised by saad. a total of 16 climbers went down n have dinner. managed to catch up some of the guys that long time never see. then after dinner, dunnoe what to do. hang around bugis till everybody go home coz nobody can decide anything. Midnight Show thot my day was over after the dinner till my ol buddy erza called me up asking whether want to watch movie. i was like, "got wad movie sia?" when he said Jarhead, i quickly said OK!.. n i wasnt dissappointed by that show altho' at the end, it wasnt as expected. reach home ard 2+ n quickly hit the sack.
ExploRally 2006 join the competition with my fellow commanders organise by total defence. its like amazing race where u have to go to checkpoints with your own car n do the challenges b4 proceeding to another checkpoint. met up with my 2ic at 7am. ( count the numbers of hours i sleep) then head to east coast park where all the cars will start off. let me cut short this story. we went to pasir laba camp, civil defence academy, marine parade central, ura @ maxwell road and back to east coast park. my 2ic was like a racer! overtake here overtake there. tho' we didnt win, we had fun, learnt something, gain something. the goodie bag was also not bad. worth the money we paid for the admission. Happy Bdae Yusri! (again) well i thot of resting at home on a saturday nite. yusri called me again whether im joining him. i was like reluctant to join coz im too shack but in the end drag my ass n head to MOS. was joined by Yusri, Soon, LiGen, Farrid n gf, Ayap n gf, Hidayat n gf, n Bathiar n gf. met nana n bf outside MOS. had a great time over there. here i m at home trying to gather back all my energy b4 book in. hope u guys out there had a good weekend too.
life is now a routine. a week can never past without being fcuk by the higher people, no matter how best i tried. life is now expressionless. good and bad times, i still feel the same. life is now a drag. my mood changes the minute im wearing green. life is now a pain. eventho' my shoulder is hurting, i still have to do all the trainings. how much far can i go till my shoulder gives way? i dont know. life is now a lonesome. tho' i hang out with my friends, its you that i miss hanging out with. life is now a daydream. my mind drifted to times i ord and beyond. life is now a worry. worrying bout the condition of my shoulder. physio said its loose. have to be extra careful in whateva i do. life is now a mess. thinking and worrying the things i shudnt be at this moment. life is now a test. day by day i wish that i could rest forever peacefully, but each time i wake up, there are new challenges awaits me. guess HE wanted me to go thru this times and learn the hard way. life is now a depression. life is going thru a really bad patch.
